Don't try this at home...

Hey hey..

Nothing overly exciting has happened lately... although I did fall down the stairs at home, which has kept me away from the computer the last couple days. I'm scraped and seriously bruised but no major damage. The baby is fine, moving more now, although I'm annoyed because even with the extra ultrasound I had Wed night, we still didn't find out the sex of the baby. I ended up back at the hospital last night with severe stomach pain. The doc scheduled another ultrasound for this coming Wed so hopefully maybe I'll get lucky and find out what the baby is then. That day.. also happens to be the day before the one I've been waiting on for ages.

My bebeh GRADUATES! Ohh I'm so excited! I'm super proud of him too. I can't wait to see him all sexied up in his dress uniform. Ohhh.... it will be a good day.

Anyways, the lil man is outside right now, so I should probably go check on him..

Peace.. and lattes..

Kaytee.

Sadly.. I'm not suprised.

So I finally found a name that he likes. I think.. I'm hoping.. fingers crossed here.. that we have agreed on Callie for a girl.. and Collin Nikolas for a boy. Not totally sure though. I didn't get a chance to talk to him before he left for the field again this morning, but sadly.. but not suprising.. he didn't call back like he said he would. Im sure it's because he was busy or w/e but still its the whole telling someone you'll call them and then not doing it.

My dear darling son came home from his fathers house last night, and ever so promptly revealed to me that he didn't like me and my hair looks funny. I went off the deep end, called his father and demanded to know what the hell was being said at his house. Of course he denied it.. like he always does. The guy can't open his mouth without lying. So I told him I'm not putting up with it any longer, and that visitation will cease immediately.

Other than those interesting things in the last few hours.. I bought a monitor so I can hear the baby's heartbeat and the ultrasound is on thursday. Hopefully I'll be lucky enough to find out what the sex of the baby is. I can't find anything I like at all in neutral colours, which means, five months into pregnancy.. I have yet to buy a single thing for this baby.

Off for now..
Kaytee

Another day of waiting for nothing

So this is pretty much going to be my spot to vent, and complain about everything happening in my life. As I'm sure you have figured out by reading the title, I'm pregnant, although it's not me that's in the military.

Lets go back to the beginning so you will understand a little better.

I'm 21 for starters. I have a four year old son, whom is my entire world, as well as an amazing boyfriend/finance, which ever you prefer to refer to him as. He is in the one in the military. Actually to get technical, he left for basic training 3 days after I discovered that I was pregnant. Now.. 12 weeks have gone by, I have seen him maybe 3 or 4 times, and as each day passes I get bigger and bigger, announcing to the world that hey.. I'm pregnant and seemingly alone.

Things have been difficult right from the day he left. For one... being pregnant is hard, having a young child is harder and to top it all off.. Trying to be a full time college student makes for one interesting time. Now normally, my darling boyfriend will call me at least once a day, more often on weekends when he's sitting around doing nothing, just to see how I am and how the baby is doing, as well as everything else around me is going. Today.. not so far. Last night it took him until almost 5 to call me, although his day was apparently spent doing nothing, he also said he would call me back last night and didn't.

Lately he's been acting fairly weird and it's starting to worry me. I don't know whats going on, and I can't find out for myself, because he's living 2 and a half hours away. Fortunately a week from Thursday, this basic training crap, that has kept me away from my used to be so adoring, caring boyfriend will be over. I know even when he does finally come home though, that things wont go back to the way they were.. because of course, we'll have to prepare for the arrival of the baby, which by the way I have a hunch will make it's appearance a little earlier than expected.

Anyways, every little thing is difficult, trying to decide on a name, to find things to talk about, to believe some of the things he's telling me. I mean, I trust him with my life, but since he's started acting weird, I can't help but wonder what it is that is going on, what is running through his head.

I should go..

Kaytee